self letter
You know you are capable of doing more good things for this world. There are some shyness and hesitations inside of you. You are not confident and assertive about many things. Those self-doubts have worn you out.
Time is a magician
You used to feel powerless; everything is unreachable. When you being diagnosed with thyroid cancer, the whole world turned into black. Nothing seems to matter anymore. That entire summer, the 19 years-old you had tears in your eye, it would burst at any moment. Sadness is all over you. You cried in the public because the hairdresser messed up your hair. You accused life of being unfair. You didn’t have time to study for college because you had two surgeries in the last semester of senior years. Luckily, your high school teachers were kind enough to let you pass your exam.
You went to an ordinary college. So college life seems very dull to you. You didn’t do much. Plus, you stuck in two weird relationships. That was very ironic, up to this moment of your life, you still don’t know how to love someone — the only person you deeply admire who is unavailable and unreachable. But you still miss him so much.
I don’t remember since when you start to believe in yourself. Maybe it is from the moment you realized the shortness of life. You begin to live in the moment. Those years of photography experience, you won some compliments. Or it could be that graduation trip. You used one-year free interest credit card money to travel to Europe with a friend who you like a lot. The whole 17 days trip, you were never encouraged enough to express your love. You hide it so well. But maybe that s mean to be.
You started to travel quite often when you realized the cost of travel is very affordable. You were fascinated by mysterious cultures and exotic food. Even the air smells different in Lisbon.
You know you are capable of doing more good things for this world. There are some shyness and hesitations inside of you. You are not confident and assertive about many things. Those self-doubts have worn you out.
Time is a magician
You used to feel powerless. Everything is unreachable. When you being diagnosed with thyroid cancer, the whole world turned into black. Nothing seems to matter anymore. That entire summer, 19-years-old you had tears in your eye. It would burst at any moment. Sadness is all over you. You cried in the public because the hairdresser messed up your hair. You accused life of being unfair. You didn’t have time to study for college because you had two surgeries in the last semester of senior years. Luckily, your high school teachers were kind enough to let you pass your exam.
You went to an ordinary college. So college life seems very dull to you. You didn’t do much. Plus, you stuck in two weird relationships. That was very ironic up to this moment of your life. You still don’t know how to love someone. The only person you deeply admire who is unavailable and unreachable. But you still miss him so much.
I don’t remember since when you start to believe in yourself. Maybe it is from the moment you realized the shortness of life. You begin to live in the moment. Those years of photography experience, you won some compliments. Or it could be that graduation trip. You used one year of free interest credit card money to travel to Europe with a friend you like a lot. This 19-day trips you never courage enough to express your love. You hide it so well. But maybe that s mean to be.
You started to travel a lot when you realized the cost of travel is very affordable. You always fascinated by mysterious cultures, exotic food and
When I look into you, those travel experience has huge impacted on you. You started to see the pattern of how the world works by observing people’s behavior. You appreciate more about life and people. Especially when you see people in those developing countries still smile happily — the income per capita in Egypt $500 per month. The transportation bus is so beat up and crowed. There is no public wi-fi in Cuba. You spent a lot of time buying and scratching off wi-fi cards, you argued about the inefficient business application with ticket lady and result leads nowhere.
You sit in a cafe trying to enjoy British accent, however, all you hear is European English. You finally saw many famous in your own eyes in every museum. You are able to afford those fancy restaurants.
You used to spend extended hours to do travel research before you arrive at the destination country, you already have the basic map in your mind. And then you become less patient. You knew the pattern. The expensive 4–5 stars hotel is always located in a great location and providing consistently excellent service. You never like air b n b because you are afraid of meeting a strange host although the chance is 1%. The funny thing is the only time your friend booked the Air BnB. You guys arrived late. The host wouldn’t allow you to enter and didn’t return your money.
You changed over time from a little girl to a mature woman. You don’t have to hide your feeling anymore because life is too short, and you have grown a lot of confidence.
I m looking forward to seeing you grow big and radiantly.
